Maybe not completely helpless for Brigid and i are packing our as much as our household things as we can to head south to Nottingham. Maybe. definitely as close to Nottingham as we dare for I do not know for certain if Sheriff Vaisey wants me dead or not but my third eye is telling me to be careful of him.
When I do get to Nottingham or even the manor I will look for Guy's grave and properly mourn for him. Then maybe Brigid and I will travel further south. Perhaps not to London, for my heart does not seem to want to now travel there but we will go somewhere. Away from York. Away from Nottingham. Away from London. Maybe even away from England. I do not know where for though I may want to endlessly travel I can not for that would be most unfair to Brigid at her age. I should think more of her for she is my elder.
*Shaking my head in sadness and weariness* I do not know what else to do. At one time I had strength, even before Guy, but since his banishment of me...*shrugs a shoulder* Who is to know! maybe I will find my strength and be strong again. I will be Lady M of Gisborne.
