Encounter

I went for a walk this morning because my head was filled with thoughts of Guy and I thought that the winter air would help take me out of my walking dreams, but it just seemed to make my thoughts and dreams of Sir Guy more strong. As I was walking I came to a break in the path and saw a vision from Heaven - my Guy.  He was in an old cloak that he spun off of his self when he saw me - oh how my heart leapt, as well as my body straight into his arms.  Crying and laughing at all at the same time,  I  covered his face with kisses, nuzzled his neck and ears and told him of my undying love for him. My love, my passion, my forgiveness and my happiness for Sir Guy all came together and my deepest wish that I have was told. I told Guy that I wanted to be filled with his child and then I threw my arms around him and held onto him with all my love and for dear life.

  It is then that I notice that Guy is not embracing me and it is at that moment that I understood that he had not held me the entire time and that he was silent.  I put down my arms and put on a brave smile and ask him what is wrong for his arms were not around me. Then the idea came to me that even in a wooded path it was still too public for us to be seen and was not safe so I expressed my apology for not thinking we were in a public place.

  As I stood there with a dull look on my face, Guy was still silent and not moving a muscle for what seemed to be... forever. Finally, when spoke he said, quietly, that he had seen me in Nottingham earlier in the month and wanted to know why I had ignored him when in the village. Why had I had walked around in a proud manner? I answered him that when I went to market I did look for him but never saw him and that I was not being proud. Then..then..he yelled and called me a liar! Moi?! A LIAR?! When all I have done is mourn for him. Hated him.Forgiven him. Loved him. Missed him. The BASTARD!! Oh how I wish I had my anger then but I was too stunned.

  I kept telling him that I had searched for his face when I was at market, but to no avail. He never believed me. He kept telling me I was a liar that I had not searched for him and that I was no better than Marian. Mon Dieu! Mon Dieu! Even now I wish my heart would cease so I could be out of this current pain. Alas, I must live on with the pain for company, for it is all I have from Sir Guy of Gisborne.

Sunday Kind of Guy #4

 I originally posted this for Valentine's on It's an R.A. World and thought that it would also make a nice Sunday Kind of Guy post and it HAS been a long time since I made one. So with stills of the backside and GIF (courtesy of Google) of Sir Guy. Oh and Vaisey is in the pictures as well.

 

Into Nottingham

  I have been of mind of late to make a journey into the village. Not a big journey just one to where I can get whatever whispers concluded. So today I dared myself to go and I did. It was not as bad as I was expecting. Yes there were stares and whispers and by chance a laugh or two, but I did not care for I held my head high, looked straight ahead and walked. I will say that I was not walking proud, well maybe I was a little but I refuse to believe I was mean about it.Just because I am a Gisborne does not mean I have to be cruel. I am the wrong Gisborne for that emotion.


Pardonne, I am still angry with Sir Guy. I was hoping by chance to see Guy in the village for I have not seen him since Christmas. Alas, it was not meant to be. So that has made my anger stronger. Even so my love for Sir Guy is just as strong. Do not love and hate live in the same space in the heart? Is this not natural? Or is it just Guy and me? I pray that I will soon see him.

*Sighs and looks away for tears are in my eyes* Pardonne moi. I am now ashamed of my anger towards Sir Guy and I miss him more every day. I do not believe that death would ease the pain that is my love for Sir Guy. I pray for his return.

Calendar Guy - February

Calendar Guy is going to be a monthly feature to break up the drama, of late, that is Lady M of Gisborne . If I had the idea last month I would have started then but instead, we will have Valentine's Day. Yummy month anyway and Sir Guy will make it extra yummy.  ☺