Encounter

I went for a walk this morning because my head was filled with thoughts of Guy and I thought that the winter air would help take me out of my walking dreams, but it just seemed to make my thoughts and dreams of Sir Guy more strong. As I was walking I came to a break in the path and saw a vision from Heaven - my Guy.  He was in an old cloak that he spun off of his self when he saw me - oh how my heart leapt, as well as my body straight into his arms.  Crying and laughing at all at the same time,  I  covered his face with kisses, nuzzled his neck and ears and told him of my undying love for him. My love, my passion, my forgiveness and my happiness for Sir Guy all came together and my deepest wish that I have was told. I told Guy that I wanted to be filled with his child and then I threw my arms around him and held onto him with all my love and for dear life.

  It is then that I notice that Guy is not embracing me and it is at that moment that I understood that he had not held me the entire time and that he was silent.  I put down my arms and put on a brave smile and ask him what is wrong for his arms were not around me. Then the idea came to me that even in a wooded path it was still too public for us to be seen and was not safe so I expressed my apology for not thinking we were in a public place.

  As I stood there with a dull look on my face, Guy was still silent and not moving a muscle for what seemed to be... forever. Finally, when spoke he said, quietly, that he had seen me in Nottingham earlier in the month and wanted to know why I had ignored him when in the village. Why had I had walked around in a proud manner? I answered him that when I went to market I did look for him but never saw him and that I was not being proud. Then..then..he yelled and called me a liar! Moi?! A LIAR?! When all I have done is mourn for him. Hated him.Forgiven him. Loved him. Missed him. The BASTARD!! Oh how I wish I had my anger then but I was too stunned.

  I kept telling him that I had searched for his face when I was at market, but to no avail. He never believed me. He kept telling me I was a liar that I had not searched for him and that I was no better than Marian. Mon Dieu! Mon Dieu! Even now I wish my heart would cease so I could be out of this current pain. Alas, I must live on with the pain for company, for it is all I have from Sir Guy of Gisborne.